Paper Panic
I grew up in the paper-shortage era.
At least I think I did.
Is that even a thing?
If it isn't how do I explain why I feel the incessant need to ration paper?
What sense does it make that I would feel such anxiety at handing over a handful of paper to my daughter?
Even if it is for the 4th time that day.
Or tossing a handful of school papers, I kinda get all guilt-ridden.
It's not expensive but I feel like I'm handing out gold.
I bought 750 sheets of copier paper for $5.
At $0.007 I am certain I can afford more than one sheet of paper.
Where is all this guilt coming from?
Deep down I must think we'll cause the end of the forests if I don't stand watch.
I was never one to take a responsibility lightly.
Growing up in the 80s and 90s there was quite a hoopla about saving rain forests and trees.
I remember getting little evergreen trees to plant on national tree day (what's the actual name of that day?) and feeling like I was really a hero.
I was going to help save the earth!
But how inadequate was one little tree?
Maybe that's where this anxiety comes from.
I can't possibly plant enough trees so I'll just limit my use of paper.
Then nobody can call me a tree killer!
Huh, I don't really know.
But if you struggle from paper panic, I'd love to know I'm not alone.
For now I guess I'll take a deep breath and add paper to my shopping list.
And I'll probably go plant a couple extra trees...and send money to the "save the trees" foundation...and go see a psychiatrist... ;)
At least I think I did.
Is that even a thing?
If it isn't how do I explain why I feel the incessant need to ration paper?
What sense does it make that I would feel such anxiety at handing over a handful of paper to my daughter?
Even if it is for the 4th time that day.
Or tossing a handful of school papers, I kinda get all guilt-ridden.
It's not expensive but I feel like I'm handing out gold.
I bought 750 sheets of copier paper for $5.
At $0.007 I am certain I can afford more than one sheet of paper.
Where is all this guilt coming from?
Deep down I must think we'll cause the end of the forests if I don't stand watch.
I was never one to take a responsibility lightly.
Growing up in the 80s and 90s there was quite a hoopla about saving rain forests and trees.
I remember getting little evergreen trees to plant on national tree day (what's the actual name of that day?) and feeling like I was really a hero.
I was going to help save the earth!
But how inadequate was one little tree?
Maybe that's where this anxiety comes from.
I can't possibly plant enough trees so I'll just limit my use of paper.
Then nobody can call me a tree killer!
Huh, I don't really know.
But if you struggle from paper panic, I'd love to know I'm not alone.
For now I guess I'll take a deep breath and add paper to my shopping list.
And I'll probably go plant a couple extra trees...and send money to the "save the trees" foundation...and go see a psychiatrist... ;)
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